There are two reasons why this post is at least 11 days late: 1) my writing mojo is missing and 2) I’ve actually been trying to finish this ‘recap’, but due to reason #1, I can’t seem to come up with something good. So I am just going to let out what I want to say sans the gimmickry, hehe!
Like all previous years of my life, 2009 was not any different in the sense that it was yet another helluva ride. All the momentous ups, the miserable downs and new experiences, they were there as always. But unlike the other years, 2009 proved to be more life changing.
I started the year with a different ending in mind. I had all these wonderful hopes and dreams and I couldn’t wait to get started. But when shit happens, all you could do is get hold of the situation to the best of your abilities. You deal with whatever cards life deals you.
It was like a new era, really – venturing and conquering an unfamiliar territory, meeting and knowing new people and friends. While some may consider it some sort of demotion (including myself, haha), or perhaps an unnecessary detour, all I know is that the destination is what I have set my eyes on.
I know that how things eventually turned out was not the original plan, let alone the ideal. But in the end, I was at peace with everything – with all that I’ve been through, with all that I’ve decided. Last New Year’s Eve, as I welcomed 2010 in the company of my beloved family, I felt inner peace that I’ve never felt for years. For some reason, I just knew – I had faith! – that everything will be alright. I know it won’t be easy (is it ever?), but I know that I have what it takes, regardless of what school I graduated from.
Sometimes, I still miss what was – the place, the people, the culture. Often, I wonder what could have been – what or where I should be right now, or by now. But miss and wonder all I want, I know that what is right now is what I have control of. So whatever 2010 has in store for me, I know that I am ready. Bring it on!
Like all previous years of my life, 2009 was not any different in the sense that it was yet another helluva ride. All the momentous ups, the miserable downs and new experiences, they were there as always. But unlike the other years, 2009 proved to be more life changing.
I started the year with a different ending in mind. I had all these wonderful hopes and dreams and I couldn’t wait to get started. But when shit happens, all you could do is get hold of the situation to the best of your abilities. You deal with whatever cards life deals you.
It was like a new era, really – venturing and conquering an unfamiliar territory, meeting and knowing new people and friends. While some may consider it some sort of demotion (including myself, haha), or perhaps an unnecessary detour, all I know is that the destination is what I have set my eyes on.
I know that how things eventually turned out was not the original plan, let alone the ideal. But in the end, I was at peace with everything – with all that I’ve been through, with all that I’ve decided. Last New Year’s Eve, as I welcomed 2010 in the company of my beloved family, I felt inner peace that I’ve never felt for years. For some reason, I just knew – I had faith! – that everything will be alright. I know it won’t be easy (is it ever?), but I know that I have what it takes, regardless of what school I graduated from.
Sometimes, I still miss what was – the place, the people, the culture. Often, I wonder what could have been – what or where I should be right now, or by now. But miss and wonder all I want, I know that what is right now is what I have control of. So whatever 2010 has in store for me, I know that I am ready. Bring it on!
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