Tell Me A Lie

I've been going back and forth on whether or not I will engage you on your emotional nonsense. Haha, the fact that I just used 'nonsense' to describe your monthly bipolar episodes -- that should definitely tell me to sit this one out. So yeah, I guess I will.

I don't know what made you this way. I've always believed that who we are is defined largely by our accumulated experiences. I, for one, think and feel the way I do because of all that I've been through. So I really wonder with concern what thing that was so horrible and so unfair that made you the way you are today.

Part of me wants to give you a piece of my mind, just so you would know of the shit you put us through each time you act up like this. But as someone wisely told me, sometimes it is better to be kind, than be right.

I can summon the patience to stand your immaturity for I'm hoping that someday you will learn how to handle things better. Emotions are hardly rational after all, and it takes time to learn how to deal with them. But duplicity is something else. Choosing to show people a fraudulent side of you, now that is a conscious decision. You choose to lie. You choose deception.

And out of the many bad things people do, I’ve learned that deception is something that cannot be undone instantly. When people use lies to deal with their shit and unload their needless pathetic drama to the people around, experience tells me that these are people you do not want to have to deal with.

But the thing is, you are fooling no one. Not me, at least. That purported mask you think you are hiding behind is practically transparent. People actually see right through you.

I do.

Better person my ass.